Well I wanted to tell you about a Tomar I have. It means everything to me. It's nothing big really, just something small, but worth a lot to me. It is a picture of a little saint my mom gave me. She gave it to me before I left Mexico and came to came to Colorado. I was only 16 years old. She told me to carry it with me while I was on the bus and everything would be ok.
So I did as I was told. I prayed to make it here and I did. I remembered what my mom told me and it made me happpy. I now keep it inside one of my purses, the same purse I was wearing the day I said bye to my mom and dad. I can still remember I was crying when I was getting the tickets until I got to Denver. I really felt as if the world was ending right then and there.
All I was thinking was what did I do? I had left my family when they needed me more than ever. Who was I going to lean on when I needed a shoulder? Who was ever going to give me advice like mom and dad? Who was going to love me more than them? Million of questions ran through my mind and the answers... where? So I got the image out, and cried in the bathroom of the bus station like a child. Then I remembered my mom again. She wouldn't be next to me, but I would have great memories and they would always be in my heart.
I realized, that if you want something in life you have to let go of those you truly love, because that's life and nothing is ever fair. So my Tomar means the world to me because I have memories of my family when I look at the image. It also has a prayer in the back. Only Catholic people belive in Saints and my mom is one of them, but thats good I guess because she cares about me religion or no religion.