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Thursday, November 20, 2008

My life as an Army wife

Eight years ago I met the man of my dreams. When I first met him I knew immediately that he was the one. After getting to know him I found out that he was leaving for the army at the end of the school year. "I was so upset". When he left I knew I had to be strong for him and myself.

All my friends and family told me that I couldn't handle it and that the relationship would not last. Right after boot camp he got deployed to Iraq for the first time. I think it was the scariest time of my life, because I did not know if he was going to come back. I prayed everyday that he would be OK, and that he would come back to me. Then he came back. I thought that was the happiest day of my life.

He had been back in the states for a few months and he came home to visit me as much as he could. I really remember one specific time he came to see me. I had no idea what was about to happen to me. He popped the question, "Will you marry me?" At that moment I knew I was going to be happy for the rest of my life. The wedding day was almost here, and I was rushing around trying to get everything done. Then a Surprise hit me I was pregnant. I was so scared. We got married and I moved to be with him. Then I got the news again. They were going back to Iraq. So I had my daughter 5 weeks early and he left three days after she was born, and I thought myself, "What am I supposed to do now?! I have this baby and I have no clue what to do!"

I think that was the longest 15 months of my life. That night my husband had come home to us once again and I thank God so much for that. He has only been home three months and I got pregnant again. A few months later, we moved to Colorado. He started working and once again I heard those words. That's right! Back to Iraq. Now I have to deal with a new born baby and my 2-year-old all by myself, except now I am in a town where I do not know anyone. I was praying and hoping that this would be his last time over there.

I got a call one day and they said, "Your husband got shot in the head." Right there I thought he was dead, however he was fine. The bullet did not penetrate, but it made him forget everything. He cannot remember what I ask him to do or what I even say to him most of the time. My life as an army wife has been so hard. In fact, I have had people telling me that he was stupid for joining and that I needed to leave him because he was not coming back. I deal with things like this almost on a daily basis. I refuse to let it bother me. I know what I live for and that is supporting my husband and kids in whatever they decide to do.

Being an army wife is one of the hardest jobs a women can have. It is a 24-7 job of wondering and worrying about how your life long partner is doing or even if he will come home to you. What I have explained in all of this is not even half of what has happened. Now that's my life as and Army wife.